I was told by a friend that during the coping time of a pet's death, you may have bursts of tears with sadness. That's exactly what is happening. These bursts can just come out of nowhere. My friend was so right. It's been a very difficult time for me. Sometimes just the thought of Lucy, whether I'm thinking of all our good times or thoughts of her being sick, I just burst into tears uncontrollably. So many times I feel guilty I didn't do more for her. Her life was way too short. I keep thinking of the look in her eyes when she was dying. Looking at me so helpless. Me, so helpless...I couldn't keep her alive. So devastating.
I pray every day that I become stronger and my broken heart heals.
